I’ve done it, well almost, 30 days of solitude. I started out cutting myself off from social media; all forms: Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Fox News, CNN.
I thought doing something like this would make me feel dread or fear of being solo and completely alone. But to be honest I’m not alone, I do go to work still and I do still see my parents and dog weekly, but in my spare and alone time I’m solo and I have to say this mindfulness and solitude is in one word: marvelous.
I’ve spent so much time on studies, reading books, blogs, painting, naps, cooking, going to the mall to see movies, going on hikes, treating myself to a new attire. I have to say being alone has taught me so much about my inner voice and my mind is more calm. I feel more grounded and humbled by the interactions I do have with others yet i’m not “all in my head” and judgemental of others as i used to traverse the world.
Now I see things differently, the animals, the tree’s, the cars, books, the world really.
I honestly thought doingthis would be a negative, and so many of my friends told me, don’t get off social media you’ll forget us. You’ll forget all those that love you and honestly I haven’t forgotten them, in-fact I think of them more but in a clear state of mind.
There was a saying I found in a book and it’s fitting about solitude: “just what we need, the way tuna need the sea. Here we are, not sad, not lonely, having the time of our lives.”
I feel that I’m going to keep going on this path. I told myself that 30 days of no social media would be enough, but honestly I’ve always be a crazy person that was driven by his own power and never have I done what others have done. This is what makes me, me. I don’t like following social norms, I like make my own norms and owning them.
After much thought, I realized that society makes us be extroverted when in-fact we all like being introverted, well I should say 2 in 5 prefer this way.
I’m just way more creative and efficent with things in life when I present myself to the life of solitude and its shocking. I knew going into this experiment that it was something new, for me, and I didn’t have fear, in-fact I accepted it’s existence and faced it and I’m so glad I have; thus far.
I honestly like tooting to my own horn, laughing at myself when I make mistakes. Embracing failure as a means for growth, running towards failure to me is something I do willingly. Cause as life has taught me, when I fail I always get right back up, and try another way. It might be hard but what in life ever is?
I just keep asking myself, is this just how humans are supposed to live? …I mean if you stay focused on health meaning exercise, knowledge (learning), can this be a persons purpose in life to be in a constant state of mindfullness thru solitude. I think for me, I do. I feel with each passing accomplishment I’m just developing self even more and I enjoy it. I think my happiness is thru constantly reaching and setting new goals. I’ve realized I’m not wandering thru life on the heels of my past but in-fact my past has acclerate me forward and my path forward is that of goals yet to be achieved and it’s exciting!!!!!!!!
I recently when on a date and to be honest I was humbled to hear her say that “who are you?” … I asked her “what do you mean, I’m me”…she said “your the 1st guy I’ve ever meet that has life under his own steam not dictate by the norms of society who has his shit together, is fit, driven in his career, always seeking higher, always seeking knowledge, and who is not afraid to be honest and it’s incredibly attractive” and it hit me. Wow! – I’ve taken life by the horns and have walked this path. I made me feel good to know that the guy I was in my past in evolving into man that is as corny as it sounds a “lone wolf”, a alpha. Even though I don’t plan on seeing her since I still only have my heart for one, it was refreshing to break my norm of solitude with a wonderful person.
Some can ask; “Trevor a lone wolf?”; if you look on my past I guess I’ve always been a lone wolf. I just was lost in my own mind. I’d like to keep going down this path, I feel like i’m that mythical alpha all men seek in themsleves. I like being a lone wolf, an alpha beating to my own drum. I love this strength of being alone while being the chipery and humbled person I am. I just like climbing the hill of life, I’m just hungry to feed my mind and rise to the highest level, never looking back always looking forward to the next feast, seeking the feast of success. I’d rather walk alone in the right direction than in the direction well travelled. Thi is what makes me alpha, not a tyrant but a man like me that always seeks to better himself, I genuniely care about others, I’m just working hard to be who I want to become. I like being a man with a deep heart that does love deeply and being the kind of man that is a warrior who is a nerd. nerds rule! 😉
I mean look at the greatest minds in the world, Eistein, Tesla, Achillies, William Wallace, Napoleon; they were all men that lived a life of solitude or I should say excelled alone.
I just have to say being alone is truly not for everyone, it takes a truly unique and strong person to pull this off and honestly I’ve gone nearly one month and I just want to keep going. I think I’d like to go 90 days. I’d like to see who I am on the other side.
To all those that are worried, don’t be. I love myself, staying busy, exercising allot, investing my time in bettering myself. I have this vision of who I want to be and I’m well on this path in life to be this person. House, certifications, fitness, travel, stack of books ceiling high. Thru this all peeps there is still only one woman in my life that I seek and someday I’ll seek her. For now, I just like being by myself. 🙂